Half- 100% alive.

Do de dum da digga dum dum da dum
Do de dum da digga dwee ah
Do de dum da digga dum dum da dum
Do de dum da digga dum da um

Are you in the big fish
Are you sitting in the belly of a world gone mad
Have you turned your back in His wish
On His will for your life, have you made Him sad
Do you want to get out of the big fish
Listen to God and follow His plan
And you won't be part of the main dish
He'll spit you out on to dry land

You're one brick short of a load now brother
You're one shot away from a bullseye
You are missing the mark on your spiritual walk
You started walking away now you're sinking -
Into the deep, wake up from the sleep
See your one fry short of a happy meal
You are incomplete by your own deceit
You turned your back, now you're going swimming

You're sinking low how low can you go
So low that you don't know which way to go
To the truth or to the dare?
If you take the dare then you'll be swallowed there
But run to the truth and you will find
That a rescue arrives just in time
To pick you up back on your feet
Obedience is neat.

I am currently half alive. I slept only 5 hours on Sunday, 4 hours on Monday, 3 hours on Tuesday and 1 hour yesterday. Which resulted in me stoning throughout lessons today and not being able to think at all. Seriously, all the essays and reports are brain-juice-draining. Reached home at 7.40PM, ate dinner and fell asleep on the living from 8.15PM till 11.15PM. Woke up with a whooping 12 over SMSes, miss calls and emails to be replied urgently. So gonna rant to God and then shut up and listen to Him. Argh.

27/11: 0118Hours: I'm now a hundred and one percent alive! Alive for God. (: Just had a super awesome time with Daddy! Songs I went through (with the guitar): Because Of You, I Just Want You, I Give & I Give You My Heart. (Keys I'm playing in, C,D, E, G and A. Hope to be able to play in B and F asap) It's a season of complete surrender to God, if ya realise. I'm in battle, time to spend even more time with God.

I thank God for people who taught to play the guitar, SuBing, Maria, (roy, for 2 weeks, recaping basics). I thank God for the first, really *ahem*CMI*ahem guitar which accompanied me through me basics and helped me strengthen my basics, cause it really has a super high action. I thank God for the different guitars that came my way, SuBing's guitar, followed by Royston's TGM and then Janet's classical guitar, quality worship have always been a chord away. I thank God for EA2C. I thank God for His precious presence at every, worship, fellowship I have with Him. (:

Time to end with a praise song! Melina's funny theory, start with worship end with praise for QT. *G4Cs Let God Arise~* YAY! (Out of the sudden, the tingling pain on the fingertips are felt, only after everything)

I 'STILL' believe in miracles

I've been watching you closely up from Heaven
See the dark clouds hanging above your head
As the enemies and vultures closed behind you
You feel you've lost with nowhere left to go

But I've promised you that I would never leave you
Though My timing's hard for you to comprehend
Do you trust Me and know that I am there
To see you through right until the end?

Do you believe in miracles?
That I'll part the sea and save your day?
Do you believe in miracles?
That I will be with you all the way?

For so many days and nights I've prayed to Heaven
While the enemies were waiting for my fall
When all around me felt like sinking sand
No place to stand, with only Your name I can call

Now I know my faith in You is being shaken
And I'm not afraid to say that I am scared
But I do know You're true
To all Your words
You are my God and I know that You'll be there

I still believe in miracle
That you'll part the sea and save my day
I still believe in miracle
That you will be with me all the way

And I know that You are able
To save me from the fire
But even if You don't
My love for You remains

Feeling really stretched, essayS, proposal, survey questions, presentation, video-ing at organisation, AIDS WADWalk-event, video editing, final proposal for organisation, reportS in one and a half week. Just as I thought I could take a breather, things happened, and I just have no way to skipping CG on Friday, have to skip the CG's X'mas party instead. *wails* :( Why am I the one helping the supervising CGC anyway? Ouch. *emo* (I can forsee Junius & Roy screaming/sighing at me when they both know about this)



Ldrsmtg was refreshing, since God has long been speaking to me about this place. *I am speaking to a crowd, teaching underneath a tree (as shade).* Hmm. But things got pressed into my brain/mind and that is when I realise I need not just strength, persistency, wisdom and good health to take the coming week, but supernatural strength, supernatural persistence, supernatural wisdom, supernatural health to do so. Oh God. I thought I will never survive this school term. Something that P.Tan prayed caught me though:"Pray that we can continue to believe God for miracles!" Time to start believing, confessing, praying with faith!

Nothing is impossible~!~!~!

Like Job, it is one thing to be blameless but quite another to be broken unto the Lord. True maturity is the absolute abandonment to God and His will. When there is no capacity for obedient endurance, we are not yet ready for the double portion. If you are going through a period of intense suffering, wisely do everything you possibly can to overcome it. And having done all, hold on steady and stand before the Lord in faith (Eph. 6:13). Obediently endure through the fire, trial, pain, disappointment, sickness, financial lack and persecution by faith. God is working out something beautiful in your life.

Big fat roach, sis just chased in out from her room into the living room, RUN!!!

AsCOTthursday:
-last year no theme right?
damian.:
-so melina's only a 'watcher' is it
PurpleFunatick:
-Read your ATTACHMENT in you EMAIL!
damian.:
-yea last year was a no holds barrred,
haha
PurpleFunatick:
-Last year's theme was : Blue and Silver X'Mas!
AsCOTthursday:
-so this year retro can?
damian.:
-whoops. :P retro was done a few years ago but still applicable
AsCOTthursday:
-do again lar or what? you suggest dam and boss FASTER reply i VERY busy
damian.:
-sorry la me also haha

I am a lil amazes at how they carry out discussion, have never imagined an even more hilarious way of brain-storming session yet. Well, at least there is progress and they are making somethings out of nothing. (:

Slept at 0445Hours cause of doing some crafts...
Woke at 0645Hours to prep and pray
0700, Morning call to Shee-fu. :D & prep for the day
Reached Ron's place bustop at 0804Hours
Shee-fu reached at 0813 with her trusty bike!
Disturbed Ron and practiced with Shee-fu till about 0845Hours
Saw the brothers played a lil Resident Evil before we started after Joey arrived.
Had a worship session with some lil 'activities', felt it was good.
Ended at about 1130Hours, Marcus prayed as we wanna end in prayers~
Stoned around with IndoMee till 0115PM while everyone played around
Caught service alone with Xue, Marcus.O joined after followed by Joey, ended at 1430Hours
Guitared around with Xue and Joey in Ron's room after that for about an hour
1600Hours, done with the guit, slacked around and watched they play more R.E.
Ron played a movie for us to watch at about 1630Hours
& I fell asleep. Woken up by Xue, (thank God she woke me up), 1715Hours
Met GFs at Lot1, dinnered, chit-chat, slacked around and more
Loved by them! YAYness, dinner was good, oh yes, they found capo and stand ♥
Settled my Ez-link and stuff, reached home at about 2130Hours
Tired... Gotta do my work before the busy school week starts...

Melina's typical week.. (without going double service, time out with family, outings/dinners/events & others)



Current Tuesday plan.. school till 4PM, ldrs mtg at JW 7.30PM. Dinner with the rest @ JW? Finish up video-planning. Do up at least skeleton of OB Essay. Wed, morning consultation before class, finish essay (& CGM lyrics, if applicable) by 6.30PM, French at 6.30PM, followed by CCA till 10.30PM, polish up proposal, prep for presentation when home. Thursday, school, proposal presentation, plan for Sat's video-ing, big fat rest break and repay sleep debt. Friday, family outing to Sentosa, (try to make it to CGM), prep for video-ing. Saturday, video-ing in the morning, followed by WADWalk in the afternoon, followed by either going for S2 & serve or rush down to S1. Sunday is devoted to video editing and work work work, proposal.. and next essay.. *faints*